I don't know if any of my friends noticed this. That once in a while, I DO update my blog.
...in like 9 months. hawhaw.
What's up with me now? It's kinda a pile of bad things heaped in front of me.
I'm in my last sem of A-Levels, what was felt in the middle of the course was felt even more intensely than ever.
I've lost a friend. In a sense that once there was an everlasting flow of conversations, it runs dry to nothing now. She is still alive, if you still didn't understand what I meant.
I'm still lost in terms of career after all these months.
I found my ugly self -that was in me before I really met Christ - still in me. I still do stuff like denying offering help to a disabled student because I'm afraid of getting inconvenienced. I still say hurtful stuff, though thankfully not on a regular basis. I loosened up on prayer, worship, and quiet time, even though I met Christ so long ago. I still am working on my poor time management.
Just like how you would feel if you saw a giant ugly-ass pimple on your nose with disdain, I too look at myself with disdain. Sometimes.
It's been very discouraging so far, since 2010.
But there has been some good things in life, like:
This friend I see in college everyday that click togetther with me so well, humouring me with retarded antics plus a listening ear- I'd call it the Best Friend Package if you don't mind.
I met this sunny, warm, sincere(a key BF criteria) guy who's a great conversationalist(another key BF criteria) and got along with me very well together. We are friends; even though he is at the UK, I'm still hoping to know him better in time.
Life's gotten me down, but obviously I'm not gonna lie down there :)
