tata, for now.

yesterday night i caught a glimpse of 'Gone With The Wind', a 30's movie. thought it would be romantic. instead, i saw this:

*rhett butler kisses scarlett o'hara*

do you want me to marry you?

i... (the woman, obviously doozled.)

say yes, say it!

...yes.

*bents down to kiss her again* do you really mean it?

YES. *and lifts her face and lips up at him!!!* my goodness~i can see her literally puckering up.

eek. my insides cringed within, it was SO cheesy to me. but scarlett has some really pretty costumes up there though. and i like her soft southern accent.


and today, i ask my mummy: 'Ma, if i was a career woman, would my husband feel inferior?'

i got yes for an answer, which sorta dissapointed me. just like the movie Funny Girl i saw, by Babbara Streisand. i mean, every girl needs her efforts to be appreciated by men, don't they?

hmm. if not, i dont think i can get married then. haha.


anyhoo, i am gonna put all my cyberspace existence to rest now, i have to. let it all rust, collect dust, grow webs, i don't care. but i'll sure be enthusiastic to write about experiences after spm, occasionally during the holidays, as much as eating a buffet. :D and the future plans i have!


so thats about it. i love you, You, and YOU. bye!

stupid, stupid fella.

what kind of friend agrees and promises, only to ffk you in other better plans? not to say i object to doing other stuff, but i feel at least an explanation would suffice. but no, no apologies, no prior notifications. i really don't understand. no i'm not hurt or self-pitying, but a little frustrated and a little mad. its so....... 'in your face' kinda thing. its so stupid, really.

okay. for the person who's reading this thinks i know that im talking about you, get over this just as i am as i'm typing this. you were an idiot, smack your forehead and ask yourself why and do a little self-interrogation. i don't hate you, just feel like giving you a little smack :)

and moving on. today's afternoon went like this:

I held the knife tentatively, staring into its glazed, lifeless black eyes.

It stared back.

Letting out a shudder, i took a deep breath.

Held its tentacles. Positioned my knife at the correct place, carefully avoiding its unnerving eyes.

Started to cut. It moved!

Mom: Stop making the dead thing come alive! Just cut it!

Me: I am trying!

The tentacles was flailing aimlessly, feeling around for my fingers.

The squid was trying to squirm and writhe under my hands, as though it felt the pain.

My hands moved shakingly as I cut the squid like using a saw.

And finally, I managed to slice it.

Those eyes were still staring at me.

okay, so maybe i was a little overreacting. the truth is, i was cutting a dead carcass, not annihilating a sea monster. but those eyes were damn scary.

hope you had fun reading that. haha!

did you hear about the news today?

there were sandstorms in australia, in oranges and reds, like a veil across the country. pretty, but not sure whether its a good sign :*

anyhoo, my car drove past two bangladeshians?/nepalese dudes, and they were HOLDING HANDS!!! my dad kept saying, 'so unfeminine,' , but i thought it was shoooo cute. :) i wish i took a picture, because its something you don't see everyday among the 'machomacho' malaysian guys here, apparently.

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this week, i shall count the food intake i have so far. chilli pan mee, bak kut teh, kfc, everyday at least something savoury and oily. oh, i can feel something expand, i'm not gonna tell you where. i can predict, by this end of the week, my stomach cravings can be fully satisfied. there's so much i want to eat, i'm not even gonna jot it down lest i feel hungry):

ah, so that's it for the ups and downs in the life of a food-lover-but-desperately-wants-to-be-slim-kinda-girl. i think, i cannot get married lah.

bye. eating red bean soup at the same time too, :))))))))

and the fun doesn't stop.

i am sorry xinwei, for not putting up a special post for your birthday, hey but the star and the card is waaaaaay better, right? so, for those who weren't at the party, here's a sum up:

i think the highlight of the night was the truth or dare game, so i'll just slip the front part and f-forward to the game.

we have:

1. melvin flashing his belly...
2. me eating a chicken wing with no hands (darn you erinaaaa!)...
3. jojo screaming for 5 seconds...
4. yuen hee pulling benjamin's leg hair...
5. erina hugging jennifer and wen jun from the back (ha!)...
6. yi xuan doing the mississippi...
7. william sniffing montri's butt...*gasps of horror*
8. le on flirting with david...
9. hoc leong kissing chang nien on both cheeks and forehead...*shudders*
10. david doing the indian dance with melvin
11. benjamin waltzing with xin wei...
12. xin wei humping her new domokun soft toy...HAHAHAHAHA
13. enrico doing a headstand...
14. pei ning slapping montri in the face!!!!!!! big OMG wey...
15. forgot what chang nien did though.
16. and wen jun's too.
17. and jennifer's.
18. and montri touched his nose to jojo's elbow. weird...

haha so yeah thats about it. the rest was entirely devoted to ps2, food, chatter and laughter. all in all, it was the AWESOME. great job, xin wei!!!! i hope you were fully educated by erina's pressie....... :)

so, to sum up.

during the past 3 weeks and counting, i tell you ar. i just feel God's presence all the time! i can't help but smile, knowing that someone's always there all the time. because way back then i had doubted, even just a tiny bit. so. unconvinced? here we go:

1. during the nights before trials, i did what i had to: commit and have faith. and you know what i started getting somewhat smarter, i just understood everything on what i've read. quite shocking la really, since my brain had gotten quite fluffy for the past one year. and, when i was doing my exam, everything that i thought i couldn't remember, i did; and the questions that i thought i couldn't do, hey i could do! maybe with God i'm not so stupid after all. haha. so yeah right at friday i got asked by phei fang, ' Candice why are you so relaxed?' and the only thing i could answer was ' i relaxed ar?' . and right after school my mum asked me,' Candice i think you have joy in you?' i grinned back and she probably thought i was nuts. :D
2. and today. a family was probably moving, so when i stepped out of the lift into the lobby, there were tons of furniture around, including this HUGE headboard. and so when we passed by it, the headboard that possibly weighed a ton fell right before me and my sister's feet. had we moved a few MILLIMETERS closer, i think its the end for our poor toes. no more nail-polish sessions :( haha im being soooooo drama today.
3. and um. yeah. i had this movie voucher that was expiring, if you know what i mean :) so, according to gsc, G force wasnt on the special movie list for vouchers. so, its either i pay or not watching anything at all. but when me and my sis got to the counter, we acted as blur as the ticket guy, who looks like he's going to out his head on the monitor and drool. and so, we got past la, albeit a little illegally. heh.
4. we got a close parking spot by the mall. and by the time when we were done, it was raining heavily and we didn't need to wait until the rain stopped.
5. and finally. the roads were slippery tonight, and so our car skidded abit. i think i suffer from abit of trauma from that incident :) and right in front of us, there were a few bunch of cars gotten into an accident earlier ago. had we've not been careful, i think we would've joined them. sometimes its called pure luck, and sometimes its jsut God guiding us. i believe the latter, because fyi this is the third incident we've gotten into, those close shaves.

and yet sometimes, its not always about what do you get after a obstacle/situation, its more like the experience in the process that makes the final cut. i have to think that miley cyrus' song makes some sense, its THE CLIMB that makes life much more meaningful. and i think its awesome that how God works in perfect timing when we face troubles, and not take them away, because what won't kill you makes you stronger.

and so the conclusion is: it really takes blind faith to believe in these stuff, and yet some would say pure luck or grounded determination, but you know where i stand. you know actually these things happen to everyone, so why not count your blessings when you look back. trust me, i think you would say you've had a ride. *wink*