I love Ken!!! :D

My first on the road experiences with a parent and without a safer vehicle that has a emergency brake at the passenger seat were mostly always at KL.

And, I don't really love driving in KL that much, k?

I absolutely wanna keeeellll those stupid pedestrians, who stroll about the lanes as though a walk in the park. Or sometimes they have such bad timing, they just cross whenever they feel like it!
I know that according to the law, if you crash into them and they're not on the zebra crossing, you're not at fault. But then again, its not worth it rightttt. :/

Still, driving can sometimes be such a BAD experience mostly because the mistakes I make is not always my techniques, but of others' mistakes!

And that sucks BIGGGGG time.

There's also bus drivers who simply cut lanes to overtake instead of sticking to one designated lane (and I'm talking about DESIGNATED!!!law-unabiders!) siao boh?! Not to mention motorcyclists who are apparently unafraid of death, swerving speedily without warning, even overlooking your signals. If they want to DIE so much, how come DEATH is not delivering??!!

Ishhhhhh. I can imagine steam coming out of every single available hole in my body now. :(

So you must wonder, what has happened to me to have witnessed me in such a unruly temper.


i screwed up in driving ok? having a few cars honking at me and i had to jump out to let my mum take over isn't such a jolly situation to be in. oh, the humiliation. and my hands! they were shaking so badly! oh gosh, how am i ever able to get through this.

But I guess at the end, I should be fine.

But not for now! Hmph. :/

And at the end,

All these energy spent, all the flowing emotions, all the time used up thinking :

Is just a one big waste.

Moving on, I absolutely lovelovelove The Heartbreak Kid. I totally recommend it, because of its good storyline, great actors/actresses; so maybe they're some sick sexual scenes in there, but if you can be not deterred by it, it actually comes off as a pretty awesome movie. Because unlike many romcoms, you cannot find any cheesiness or cliches in there. Ok, maybe a little cliches. (: Anyhow, I can finally see Ben Stiller, as a pro actor this time. (:

So, whatever may happens, just enjoy life. Even if there's a couple of lemons, or even cili padis, thrown in your way. What's life without sambal and magarita, right? ;)

where to start.

The next thing I know was, he's leaving in a pretty short time soon.

And, I thought I would be prepared, and go, " Yay, see you soon! ".

But all of a sudden, I'm not so sure on how to react. I really don't know.

Damn you, emotions. They really know how to get you!

Am I gonna cry? Am I gonna miss him for the rest of the days in my life? Am I gonna grasp the moment, and cherish by spending some time with him?

*shrugs*

And I'm supposed to prepare for college! :/

I just feel so, indifferent? That's not the exact way to put it eh. But a kindof numbness, anaesthetizing me.

I don't know what to feel. But I'm so used to not seeing him often. I should be ok, right?

"Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all."

Need You Now, Lady Antebellum

I can't understand this phrase. Because, I feel nothing, at all.

heyheyhey (:

got back from Penang yesterday, was supposed to swim with Dad but was dead tired and exhausted.

shall post up videos and pictures from the trip soon.

Haha, ever since I discovered the macro settings in the digital camera (yeah i know i should belong in a museum!), food never looked so good.

Oh, I'm sorry I'm unable to provide the addresses to the places where good penang food is produced!

Alot of the roads are changed to one-way lanes, and besides some of these places are a little hard to find because, they are not big, obnoxious, clean places where tourists flock to.

And as the cliche goes, to look for good food, you have to look deep, reallllll deep, like in small alleyways. Another tip is also to go where the locals go, right? (:

So yeah. Today was pretty productive, my chores are almost done, cupcakes were made, and I'm about to watch a movie soon.

Andand, Project Lose Weight is officially on today!!! (:

Life, is slowly but surely, picking up pace.

Whoa, hi there June!

Gosh, 5 months just flew by me without me fully aware!

Ya think that doing barely in life, meaning not accomplishing much, but I believe I grew alot in terms of maturity, spiritually, and, sigh, physically!!!! *groans ; which is quite a good thing no?

And I promised myself, on the month of July when I start college, I'd better be more productive! Which actually, I will. (:

Sooooo, things in life for me so far, hmm, is kinda at the valley part if we're using a rollercoaster ride in comparison? Its like, if I'm moving, I'm probably not even moving in a straight line, just, going, downdowndowndowndown.

Yeah, I think current events are like big waves, threatening to drown me in it and let me choke in self-pity and despair. Hahah, emo muchhhhh??? NAHHHHHH :D

Anyways, to sum it up, I kinda feel, indifferent. Neutral.

And for the timebeing, I really want to grow-up. Today I passed by a friend's blog; she looked back at her journals and diaries and how she hated what she wrote because they were so childish and immature, the things she was angry about was so, irrevelant. I read and I thought, gosh thats me too.

You won't believe the number of events that happened in my life that I wish to take back, rewind, and start over. My decisions could've been so much wiser and better! And most importantly, non-hurtful :/

But thats life isn't it eh? You'll do better in life if you learn, not just pre-progammed into your mind and you go, oh, imma just do this.

But anyhows, I just wish, that teen angst would just leave me now; thats the BIGGEST reason of why I so desperately want to grow up and be an adult about it. That even if things about your crush didn't go the way you like, or maybe an unintentional thing your best friend did that offended you even if it was just a tiny little thing, or when your life gets just way too unproductive, or when you find out your jeans can't fit you the way it used to be, or when your stomach is being a bitch to you, or even when an outing that was supposed to happen tomorrow just got postponed tonight; you feel like the world is about to crash on you and you'd just get buried underneath and just, X/

Hahah, a little wordy now eh Candice? (:

I just, I just want to get upset only by things that matter. Ok, so I understand about crushes and body weight and all that, but I just get so frustrated about my own unnecessary misery that I yell internally, at myself, GO GET A LIFE IDIOT.

Life is so crazy and so unfigurable to me, you wouldn't believe, hahhahah.

I don't make much sense, for the moment.

Maybe, I would just dress insanely pretty or, insane&pretty everytime when I go out. Maybe that'll make me feel much better cuz I wouldn't care what would people say or think.

Ugh. I'm getting neurotic. I'd better stop, bye.