Whoa, hi there June!

Gosh, 5 months just flew by me without me fully aware!

Ya think that doing barely in life, meaning not accomplishing much, but I believe I grew alot in terms of maturity, spiritually, and, sigh, physically!!!! *groans ; which is quite a good thing no?

And I promised myself, on the month of July when I start college, I'd better be more productive! Which actually, I will. (:

Sooooo, things in life for me so far, hmm, is kinda at the valley part if we're using a rollercoaster ride in comparison? Its like, if I'm moving, I'm probably not even moving in a straight line, just, going, downdowndowndowndown.

Yeah, I think current events are like big waves, threatening to drown me in it and let me choke in self-pity and despair. Hahah, emo muchhhhh??? NAHHHHHH :D

Anyways, to sum it up, I kinda feel, indifferent. Neutral.

And for the timebeing, I really want to grow-up. Today I passed by a friend's blog; she looked back at her journals and diaries and how she hated what she wrote because they were so childish and immature, the things she was angry about was so, irrevelant. I read and I thought, gosh thats me too.

You won't believe the number of events that happened in my life that I wish to take back, rewind, and start over. My decisions could've been so much wiser and better! And most importantly, non-hurtful :/

But thats life isn't it eh? You'll do better in life if you learn, not just pre-progammed into your mind and you go, oh, imma just do this.

But anyhows, I just wish, that teen angst would just leave me now; thats the BIGGEST reason of why I so desperately want to grow up and be an adult about it. That even if things about your crush didn't go the way you like, or maybe an unintentional thing your best friend did that offended you even if it was just a tiny little thing, or when your life gets just way too unproductive, or when you find out your jeans can't fit you the way it used to be, or when your stomach is being a bitch to you, or even when an outing that was supposed to happen tomorrow just got postponed tonight; you feel like the world is about to crash on you and you'd just get buried underneath and just, X/

Hahah, a little wordy now eh Candice? (:

I just, I just want to get upset only by things that matter. Ok, so I understand about crushes and body weight and all that, but I just get so frustrated about my own unnecessary misery that I yell internally, at myself, GO GET A LIFE IDIOT.

Life is so crazy and so unfigurable to me, you wouldn't believe, hahhahah.

I don't make much sense, for the moment.

Maybe, I would just dress insanely pretty or, insane&pretty everytime when I go out. Maybe that'll make me feel much better cuz I wouldn't care what would people say or think.

Ugh. I'm getting neurotic. I'd better stop, bye.